I am not DEAD.....

Some people think that i am dead because i haven't posted anything in this past few months....


Actually i really want to...


But, i am way too busy....

what the fuck is going on with me?!....

Sorry about the rude words, but to be honest, i am way pissed off again!.I can't post from the comps in my house because it is very slow and I am not a patient kind of gal!..So.....I will only post during my school time....
I haven't post this for such a long time, right?!..Let me tell u about things that has happened to me during that long period of time...
I have been..:

1.Chosen to be the MC for the reception of the Indonesian Independence day
2.Chosen to be the MC for the Children's day in my school
3.Studying the whole time...coz' i shall return to my country at the end of August...
4.Dancing...ballroom dance, especially...
5.Having fun!
6.Going to live shows that has been held in Yangon...
7.Missing and longing that special someone...
8.uhm..shopping?!
ETC

U must think that my life is so boring for doing the same thing over and over again..but right now, i am preparing myself for the biggest thing that i think is going to happen in my life!(so not sure).............

Today....

Well, today has been going on well since i am outta of the house most of the time and now i am FINALLY without BRACES!!!!!..isn't that lovely???!!!!.....
Yeah ..it does hurt when the doctor took it off and also when he tried to erase the glue or whatever u may call it....To celebrate this moment, I am trying to write a new song about my teeth or my feelings this whole week...
Well, g2g...c ya tommorow.

I am way pissed off right now....

Don't ever ask me why i haven't post anything in such a long period of time!!....There are so many reasons...such as:
* My comps sucks!
* There are no Cyber Cafe in YGN which can open things quickly..(so unlike my comps in my house before i ruined it with programs that made the memory of it full....)
*I am not in a very good mood these days...don't know why?!!..
*Can't open friendster..so i don't have any intention to explore things anymore....

Anyway, those are all things that has happened in this week and made me up to my neck right now...I want to tell u about things that has been happening to me in this past few days...

1. I've finally decided to resign from my dancing group in the Embassy because of some reasons that i can't tell u why...So in that case, i won't perform a dance in the reception of our Independence Day.
2. I've been learning ballroom dancing on and on again..but please tell me a tricks to move my HIPS???!!!!....Duh??...I can dance modern, traditional and whatsoever but i think ballroom is something very new to me and i still have to adapt to it..
3. I haven't been going out to some shopping mall because i am busy to pack my things up.I am leaving to my country in a month...!!! YES YES YES...................
4. I've finally decide to take social for my further study because Chemistry is so not my thing!..

Well those are the things that i can think of right now...

My Prerogative..

I am so sick about people gossiping!!!!.....Eventhough i am the BiGosH in my school..but still why don't they just let me live???!!!!.....

"My Prerogative"

They say I'm crazyI really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
Getting boys is how I live
Some ask me questions,why am I so real?
But they don't understand me
I really don't know the deal about my sister
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago before I won this fight
[Chorus:]

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me,why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogativethat's my prerogative (it's my prerogative)

It's the way that I wanna live (it's my prerogative)
You can’t tell me what to do
Don't get me wrongI'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships really gets me downI see nothing wrong in spreading myself around

Post on a *hot* Saturday night...

It is really hot right now, perhaps because of the number of peeps right now.....Anyway, i just want to write about my first ballroom dancing lesson that i took from Darwin(maybe Charles Darwin?) in Dusit Inya Lake....I was so happy because i love dancing as much as I love singing and shopping...Because, when i dance, i become someone that i really want to be at that very moment, someone that i've been dreaming of, someone that really inspires me and someone that makes me to be what i become when i am Dancing.....
It has been my passion since i was at the age of 3. Even when my family and I went to London, i heard the sound of Spice Girls playing in the street and i started to dance in the middle of the street and everybody thought that i was a nuts and they threw me money, because they thought i was doing it to get some money...My parents videotape it if u really want to c it......

Today, i learn about Swing dance...the counting is back..then..1...2...back and u repeat it over and over again....I never realy count when i dance, actually..I just feel the music and let it run through my veins and suddenly my hips are moving at a rapid pace...I can't control myself when i am dancing..because as i told u before, when i dance i become someone else...A girl whose trying to reach self-actualization and whose trying to run from all of her problems behind her...

That's enough about my Dance lesson..i want to write about my situation right now.I am in a stupid dirty sexual party to which i was invited by someone whose initial is BM because it was held in his house.It is a real fortune that he has a comps that i can use because it is so noisy and they made me as a BET, which is really pissing me off....I actually was hoping that this party has cool music and dance and cute boyz...Here, the party sucks!.The music are so bad...they dance those dirty sexual dance and those cute boyz are SEX MANIAX!!!....Urgh..I just wish i could go away from this place..but i can't..they have made me as a BET!..So, i am suppose to be here and "accompany" the winner....

A day full of observation....

When u look at the title of this post, u may think that i am observing something very smart..like DNA?....hahaha..no, i am doing some observation about something very bad..and i don't want to write it in this Blog.
Anyway, today is not a very boring day since i spent most of the time in the car with my driver whose driving me around the town....clearly no idea of where to go....But there is something shining comes to my way..and i remember that I am going to get my ALLOWANCE tommorow!!!....Yes......i'm so happy because i can spend those money to get through this whole boring summer holiday....